EXHAUSTION

Yesterday I was so exhausted I thought I might go mad. I think it was a combination of lack of sleep and taking an antibiotic for round two of mastitis. what ever the reason, it was ridiculous what it did to me. I just couldn't think straight. I had to run to store so I put Micah in the car and then I tossed Max in there. It took a minute since Max decided to take a giant bite out of a piece of blue sidewalk chalk. So I cleaned him up to the best of my ability and head to the store. Keep in mind when you are envisioning this story that I have baby puke on my black shirt and my hair is a frizzy mess falling out of a sloppy pony tail. I kind of looked like living dead girl ala baby puke. So we make it to the store and when I go to pull Max out of his car seat I realize that I never even buckled him into it. The whole eating of the sidewalk chalk threw me for a loop and I never secured my 20 month old in his car seat. Horrifying I know. whats even more horrifying is that this is the second time I have done this to this child. the first time he was two weeks old and it was new years eve when there is more drunks on the road than any other day of the year. what happened is that we went to a friends and everyone was holding him and he fell asleep so I put him in his car seat. He then got covered up with a blanket. So when we left, I just thought he was buckled. So I hope to never make this mistake again. okay, back the original story. The grocery store actually went off without any horrific complications and we headed home. So when we got home I took Max out of his car seat once again only to find that his diaper was so full of pee it had leaked onto his pants. Now, I am sure that I changed him before we left but in my delirious state I must have imagined it. So in a matter of an hour I manage to become the worst mom ever. To top off the night, I went to store to buy trash bags and then never bought them. I was thinking about committing myself for awhile. Of course when It was finally time to go to bed, Micah decided that he didn't really want to sleep so I was up most of the night. He is worth the tiredness though. I just hope the boys can survive my exhausted states. I must be getting old.